Heartjoy seemed to have decided to live up to her name and though she got into her own fair share of mischief she never overly upset or worred anyone, she was patient in all she did and would work at something until she knew she could never be any good at it or until she could master it well enough. As she claimed her adult name and settled into life she took up tanning in addition to her hunting and gathering, aquiring quite a bit of skill at it.

      In time she adding tanning to the things she had mastered and slowly she was gaining skill with the needle. One day she was out hunting a storm blew in suddenly and being a good days travel from the holt she settled into a low den in a hollow tree. Unfortunately the tree was knocked over when another tree split by lightening fell on it and upon awakening she remembered nothing of her past. It seemed strange to her that she knew how to hunt, knew how to tan and had skill with the needle but remembered naught else. Frustrated she set out to see if she could learn more about herself, perhap even recover her memories such as they might be.

      She bonded a new wolf-friend to replace the one she lost even before her memory and slowly things began to come back in bits and pieces though not clearly enough to make any sense at first and then one stormy night a good deal of her memory came flooding back to her. She knew she could not regain any of the time she lost and a trip to her home holt left her wandering until she stumbled into Ravenbrook.

      For turns her attention was turned to Greystalker, an antisocial elf who was gruff and sometimes verging on mean. Eventually Sunsleaf followed Risenstar and the pair left the holt for a time shortly after Laughingseeker was wrapstuffed. The holt had been... different, as if filled with unwelcoming strangers for both of them. Now, upon their return Laughingseeker no longer is the same elf she knew. The whole tribe is different and Seedling is chieftess. She's confused, feeling very much the outsider in this tribe that used to be as family. She doesn't love Briar, she barely even knows him. Yet he seeks to be a sire to the cub she and Risenstar have raised and Sunsleaf only wishes that Risenstar would accept him and she could ease away to find herself again.